January 22, 2022
A rough week had me turning to poetry early and often. In the end, with a little help by Petrarch, Shakespeare, and Frost (infused by Dante), I ended up with this rather fun trio of sonnets. Unfortunately, I know there are people who want to read so much into every line. I guess I should be happy I live rent-free in some empty heads. Odds are that anyone trying to read more into lines are not the impetus here.
From the outset, I was all about form,
Classical, ideal, as was taught to me,
Blinded to be seen as part of the norm,
The way my mentors all seemed to be.
That way I could always measure my term,
Structure leading me to think I was free
To seek out other pursuits to perform
In my endless desire to be happy.
My strategy satisfied for awhile
Until the restraints cut through my tough skin.
As I faced routine I now reviled,
My patience for my subjects had worn thin,
When I saw in the mirror my tired smile
I worried about the what-might-have-beens.
I came to enjoy the variations
That new responsibilities afford,
Forays into worlds of operations,
Applications, even healthy discord.
After all, it meant I could break away
From mountains of assigned papers to grade,
That never-ending parade of clichés,
And the trails of tears red-penned comments laid,
Fix foundations, instead of the landscape
That was all outsiders would ever view,
Underestimating all the red tape,
The tedium of planning what to do.
In time that what I saw in the mirror
Reflected all my shadowy terrors.
When I awoke from nine days of slumber,
Everything looked and seemed the same,
Slimmer but not noticeably dumber.
Desperate to get back into the game,
The challenges were all to be embraced,
Whether now in ashes or fiery flames.
Was my ambition to return misplaced,
Flush in the delusions as a savior,
Mis-reader of the vaporous traces?
With my second chance via God’s favor,
I don my armor, return to the fray
Duty, devotion to never waver.
These days I look into that pane of glass,
Pull a nose hair, muttering, “what an ass.”